I learned a lot this last quarter, and little of it was academic.
The biggest thing on my mind currently has been my tendency to hesitate. I finally got up the nerve to ask out a certain individual who I've been intrigued by since my first quarter at school. I had an excuse for not pursuing that since at the time I was content with my marriage. Anyway, keeping the ocnext short, finally asked and apparently just some weeks prior she had started seeing someone. Assuming she's not just being nice or trying to let me down easy, she would've said yes otherwise.
So hesitation is bad.
After some moping, I decided I wouldn't hesitate in the future. And so after a rather slow process of getting to know a classmate of mine, I asked her out. And we went out, and I had a great time, and according to a mutual friend she enjoyed herself as well. Things are good right?
Ask her out again, and she says yes. However once the word "date" is introduced she gets cold feet and cancels the day of and any future chances of going out, and gets pretty distant. So I'm not sure what connotation "date" carries with her or if I'm being accused of seeking a one night stand or something, I'm totally confused. I guess it all works out, I couldn't imagine her being that good of a friend let alone more if this is how she handles social situations.
Of course after deciding to not hesitate in the future, I become attracted to a girl who views talking over dinner to be moving too fast.
I'm still fairly set on trying to not hesitate and watch things go by wondering what would've happened. Also, despite my romantic failings, I've ended this quarter with far more friends than I began it with. I've really made some great connections.
Now I'm just relaxing, exercising, actually drawing (weird right?), and trying new things like mead. So still feeling a bit lonely, but ultimately I'm pretty damn excited for where my life is going.